Tweak by Nic Sheff

This week, I finished the book Tweak by Nic Sheff. This book is an memoir- a true story- about his hard life as a drug addict. Nic Sheff was addicted to the whole lot of drugs:meth, crack, cocaine, marijuana, painkillers, anxiety pills, etc. Throughout the story of his life, I realized that Nic Sheff was not addicted to drugs, but to anything that would take the pain away.

Nic had many problems. As a child he always felt that he was the outsider and he saw thing differently from others. He was not an outcast, but just secretly different. He started using drugs at a very young age. He also became sexually involved at a young age too. He describes getting high as making him feel powerful and helping him not give a crap about his worries or his family or his problems with self hatred.  He always felt like his family was so perfect and had everything together and he was a lost puppy and hated himself for relying on him for everything. Nic hated the way he looked, he hated his addiction, he hated being lost, and basically hated everything about himself. Turning to drugs didn't make him love himself, but it gave him an outlet.

This book made me cry. Honest. Sheff told his story with such a raw reality that it was unlike anything I've ever experienced before. To be in the mind of a man who truly hated himself and everything he was was heartbreaking; a man who struggled to find his identity, a man who struggled with drugs. I would suggest this book to anybody. PLEASE DO READ!